thinking about it more & more, i've starting to get pretty damn worried about what college i'm going to go to. the biggest problem yet would probably be the money. if i had the money, i would go to a school i truly want to go to but as nice as that sounds, i don't want to put anymore stress on my parents than i have to. idk why my brother decided to go to nyu. it's great school n all and it's also really expensive. money is such a issue, i really wonder if all these ivy league schools and expensive private schools really live up to their name. hopefully i can get a scholarship or something. i know i don't particularly stand out at all but maybe, just maybe.

really gotta get my shit together junior year especially. gonna go to clubs every week, or just join the bowling team & focus in class. i've been dozing off or sleeping way too often these dayss. my fault that my grades are slowly slipping. asdfghjkl;'