(That's a really weird shapshot that I liked and uploaded to lighten the moood, i'm think about doing those 30 day challenge things on tumblr, except on here, 'cus tbh, i'm not into the whole being a different person on tumblr & being different in school kinda of thing. I pretty much act the same way everywhere I go, and this just gives additional insight where the whole world doesn't know, but a limited, maybe 15 people do?)

The more I think about it, the less & less I feel like I seem to know myself. Whenever it comes down to a conversation, I feel like I've actually reached a point in my life where i have NOTHING to say. I really, really, don't like ending conversations awkwardly, and just having to sit with a group of people with nothing to talk about. It's just not me, yknow? It really BOTHERS me how the people around me don't try to bring up the conversation. -_- I mean I'm pretty you feel the same way as me, unless you don't want to talk to me... But, I really hate it when I run out of things to say. I can't even start saying things about myself, because, what can I say? Am I supposed to talk about my bland life? It's not like that's going to keep you interested. Rather, it's not like I have anything in particular I'm either comfortable saying, or can say. Am I supposed to talk about something we have in common that we've discussed 283922893072 times already? It's all getting so old, I'm pretty much sick and tired of trying to keep the conversation going. If you don't try, why should I? Now let me continue smiling to myself like an idiot by putting a bunch of old throwbacks into my head while you increase the awkwardness, k? If you haven't put the effort into a conversation, nothing is wrong, yes?