My generation disgusts me. It fucking does.

deathnote is awesome.

don't spoil it, i'm only on ep. 2.

LOL & btw, any of you guys have a ps2 i can borrow?

ohkay jaykay, but i wanna play kingdom hearts. DX

Some of the things people argue about are just >.> ~

& when somebody jumps in the argument it's just like (duh feoo?) ~

& some people are just sitting there thuur watching them argue like o_e ~

You just want to say =_=; ~

& some people come up with the lamest comebacks like -_-"~

Overall some arguments are just~ n__n

kaykay! letz all make up and eat sum chokit kek! :D

Flashback =/

You know what i really miss? 5th grade. It was probably one of the best years of my life. It was our "senior" year or in literally terms our last year in elementary. (LOL, we call ourselves seniors all the time when the only time we're legit seniors is in highschool, ahh[x) Well, i miss it a lot. In 5th grade, or actually any grade in elementary, it didn't matter if you were ugly, if you didn't have many friends, if you were fat, nobody would judge you. It wouldn't matter. We look at each other as all the same. We're all human, we all have feelings & we didn't abuse that matter. You may have not had many friends but you would feel accepted just about anywhere you went. There were no awkward silences, no awkward glares, no "i don't know what to say" moments. It would all start smoothly like we've been friends forever. Best of all, there were no cliques. Honestly, i hate cliques. Cliques = Drama. That's probably one of the biggest reasons i wanted "TC" to end. I don't want to look up to some stuck up role models. If i look up to anyone, it wouldn't be to anyone who loves making cliques & bitching at others just bcus there not as fortunate as you. Ever since middle school started, probably through the first months of school, we all formed our cliques & if you ended up with someone outside your clique in assigned seats it would be a disaster. Calm down, just 'cus you're not with somebody you're familiar with does not mean there horrible. In fact, the majority of us have been together for years & your still not used to talking to them? It's like the elementary years have gone to waste. Cliques were stupid, judging would only make yourself look worse (i don't even think we were aware of it), & there was little or no hatred at all. That's when everything was so simple. The start of 6th grade was rocky & eventually we were all into cliques. It happened like that. It was intentionally, it just happened. All of a sudden, e'rryone hits like puberty or something & you got to have a big chest & nice ass to be accepted. what duh feoo? i've never looked for appearances first in a guy, being cute is a plus but it's not a necessity. Unlike these people out there for who knows what, so what if they have a nice body, you still gonna like them after you realize how bitchy there are? I know many of these doodes might say it for fun but it's just not funny anymore. "I wanna bang _____ bcus she's hot" or "Dude, she's hot" Alright, you can feel some affection but have your limits. And now that we're older, judging is normal. Our brains are disgusting. We could think the worst out of some of the nicest people out there if we put our mind to it. Well guess what? There's a judgment day for you too & just for a heads up, it's never too late to change that.

Ugh, i don't feel the same mood to blog anymore. Blogging is only truly meaningful if it hasn't been done in a long time 'cus that's when my thoughts are all crayzee the most.

kthxbye [=

Never assume, it makes an [ass] out of [u] and [me]

Compeitiveness

Not to give offense of anything but my class is pretty competitive. Not only for grades but for just about anything. It's not bad but I find it offending when you rub it in someone's face that you did better then them. An example would be

Person 1: "What's your score"

Person 2: 80

Person 1: AHAHAHA U SUK, i did better than you omg, this is a miracle i beat you i'm smart omg.

Person 2: ...

If i've ever done any sort of rubbing in it definitely wouldn't be so-so harsh, plus, if i ever have, i don't plan on it anymore. It's like, ohkay, i get your proud, but like f'rreals? Are you THAT happy that you did better than someone? Put yourself to higher standards & stop comparing yourself to others. That's ridiculous, and how are you gonna feel if that person does better than you? Not so great, be proud of yourself but don't put others down for that reason. My goodness, people aren't perfect & we all have our weaknesses in some subjects ohkay? Now that you've rubbed into someone's face that you're "smarter" than them bcus you "beat" them, just don't be surprised when karma (yes, it's real ali -__-!) bites you back & disrespect should be no surprise, am i right? People give back what they get, and if that trashy attitude towards others is what you give, don't accept to be "loved". Ohkay, i get it SHSAT's are coming & you want to be all prepped but no need to put others down, that's it. It's our last year together, pls don't start having to ruin our last year with none other than being competitive. Tell me, after you get everything you've ever wanted & beat everyone & rub it in one by one, is anyone even going to be there to support you for when you fail & i swear to god you will.

"Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery"

__________________ㅡ Charles Caleb Colton

I remember that blogging just started & we would each blog every day about our lives, interesting or not & it would literally be what the purpose of a blog is. Expressing your feelings & not deleting every single one of your posts. We would read each others blog to communicate, learn more about each other without having to say it face to face & it inspired one another to keep writing until the end. Now that all that has faded, wether i type here or not, nobody will care if i'm feeling down or if i'm mad at someone, blogs don't have the same purpose anymore. Although i used to be a huge fan of writing in blanks, now i'm willing to talk about my life without it, bcus no one reads it anyway. But why bother to continue writing if no one will hear the voice in your posts? Just to let anyone who reads this know in advance, but each one of my posts have a purpose deep down. Short or long, some are more visible than others but everything has a purpose. Now we're all growing & maturing each day, we're learning to trust no one & simply keep all our thoughts bottled up. But now that we are growing, don't you realize that as we get older, we go through more & we learn more. What i've learned is, no one truly misunderstands. (It's better to misunderstand than no nothing at all.) It would be impossible to understand someone's situation so perfectly. You're right, i can't give you the exact advice you want to hear. I have a different perspective & i can't guarantee that it'll be one that you'll favor. I can't say i'll understand your problems, but i can guarantee that you won't have to go through it alone. Every time i thought someone would misunderstand that i didn't tell that how i felt, in reality, i was afraid they wouldn't listen, they would judge, they wouldn't care. This is why secrets are so ridiculous, why do we hide them & keep it in until you have to blow up when your alone? I'm not telling you to trust anyone, but there will always be that one true friend willing to be by your side. A true friend is not someone you've known for the longest, but someone who never left your side. Now that i think about it, growing up isn't all that great. In reality, it can be harder to find new friends, it can be harder to open up, it can be harder to find someone who isn't lying straight up to you. This is why i like blogs, you can learn so much about someone with a few words. You might not be the type of person i am, someone who can tell what your like or how you feel but some words, but there's room to learn and there's room to listen. Overall, i'm just stating how i don't want to move on with blogs, i don't want to have secrets. I might as well say everything here, i don't care if you read it. I don't care if you mention it. Feel free to talk to me about it, i'd rather have a helping hand then wonder each and every day something that can easily be handled. Why is the world so complicated? & Why is it so easy for us to hide our emotions? Does it benefit you in anyway? Every time you fake a smile, fake a laugh, fake a friend, fake your life. You're becoming exactly what we all don't want to be. A liar, a wannabe, & last but not least, the biggest hypocrite i'll ever meet. Continue to say, "I hate when people lie, i hate wannabes, i hate when people think i won't understand" Take a look at yourselves first & before you start to judge anyone on how they live their life, it's time you control and take a look at yours first. What is the point i'm making in this point? It's a life lesson, and if you have no idea what i'm trying to say, i'm sorry to say but you've got a lot to learn. Be my guest & hide all your emotions, just don't be surprised that when your ready to speak up, no one will be there to listen. Some people don't wait forever for you to open up. There's so many people in this world with concerns and worries which can be cleared up by speaking up on how you feel. Are you worried someone is mad? Talk to them about it instead of wondering why each day. Concerned you've lost a friend? As hard as it sounds, a true friend would have never left your side. Let's face it, you can't trust anyone with your entire life. But there will be a point in life where you find someone who will stick with you forever. But then as you grow on, we learn the true meaning of happiness and it's not what you have, it's who you have in your life and if you make the best of it.This post is pretty miscellaneous, i just typed any thoughts that came to my mind. I can continue to go on and on with this but what's the point, nobody bothers to blog and look into each others blogs to learn about each other anymore. It's not the same & i'll acknowledge that. It might as well be time i say goodbye too.