learning this on piano right now, & it's absolutely beautiful~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I6gHYn8nBZU&feature=fvst

mostdef ready for the new year. ^_^

& my birthday ofc.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QjA5faZF1A8

god, i look up to him. O_O

i need sleep. T-T

like really, i'm so tired rn, i can barely think properly. i cannot wait until break, so i can finally get some rest in general. i hate how they give us a "break" but then load us with a crapload of work, we might as well just go to skuu. like espescially ms. mendez, ofc i'm NOT going to write 4 pages a day, are you fucking kidding me? teachers expect SO much, just 'cus we're 8th graders now. it's no big deal, we're NEVER going to get used to old fashioned routines. People are so dumb.

webcammin' like a 13OSS.

wtfook.

Facebook, you piss me off in all the ways possibruu. >.>

like com'on, whaddya have against my name?! saying you'll like ban me for an hour...wdf.

Over-thinking ruins you. Ruins the situation, turns things around, makes you worry, and just makes things worse than it actually is.

Most of the time, negative comments is a gateway for self improvement. Constructive criticism and idiotic insults are two different things.

Ode to The Nice Guys

"This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl's every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style. This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they're at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creeper male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but gives them out anyways, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don't end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you. This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all okay and she shouldn't worry about it. This is for the time she interrupted the best killing spree you'd ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn't have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing "serious" between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: "oh, but we're just friends!" And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you're nice like that. The nice guys don't often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don't seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can't. From what I have observed through school, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches.

I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you're sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, insane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgment, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society and your well deserved vindication is coming."

i hate how i waste like 20 minutes deciding on what you write, type it & delete it bcus i know that somebody will get the wrong idea...

Overrated. -_-

i never thought i'd say this but like f'rreals, uno is beginning to get on nerves, it's not so fun anymore. it's like "YO I BEAT YOU AND I OWNED YOUR ASS" quoted by ali, but i owned his ass. o-o KARMA BEETCH. but srsly, i believe uno is losing it's touch. it used to be really fun playing group games & all. but now all that e'rrryone wants to do is challenges & that's not fun for the majority of the people. YOU WANNA KNOW WHY? bcus not e'rrryone gets to play & there's not enough cards to split the deck 273987128945 times. -_- hey, don't get me wrong, uno is a fun game. i like it with a lot of people actually but these days it's not something i'll even offer bcus people are so uncooperative. they have this deal with wanting to put down their cards. there's a lot of screaming, it's messy & you have no idea whose turn it is anymore. it's just a friggin' card game, cheeeel? i honestly prefer lunch periods with talking, randomness & lots & lots of laugher. it happens with uno too but it's not as fun...uno is being taken more srsly these days, namsayin? it's like their life is on the line & if they can't play for one day they're going to die! OMGIZZLE. so today i sat at sean's table 'cus my table had some yucky yogurt spilled which eventually people ended up cleaning themselves without knowing & touching it like i did ;D but then, it was not so fun, it was after funner when i switched back to my old table.

NO UNO = NORMAL FUN LUNCH PERIOD.

UNO = HYPER CRAZY NIKKAS THAT FEELIN' HIGH.

i will glady play e'rry once in a while when we're super bored, but i'm going to stop bringing my cards. uno is a bit overrated now.

LOL why is sean asking these things? guess who i answered with. (;

& you don't need to know the answer to the last question over thuur. ;D

Quizzes! {:

You're Content Cute

People find you cute because you always have a smile on your face. You don't have too much to frown about. You are a generally laid back and chill person. You are in love with the world and your life. At times, you can be a bit detached and uninterested. You always try to rise above the drama. Your friends may feel like you don't care about their lives, and but you do. You just are trying to be a calming influence.

The Cutsie Cupcake Test

Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

i srsly wonder why i have views coming from united kingdom & france. O_O

how duh hail do these ppl find my blog? ;p

LAWLZ.

DiZz BBehH mAhiIinN HAAckKENn Ma hoOMe GuRLlL jNENNAYY. sHEE iz LykeE--

^^ That pisses me off so much -.- This is mahin in jennys account because we have nothing to do at yearbook. FUN :D

I AGREE HEARTILLY - Binita being awesome as USUAL :D

^ Hot. -Jenny.

:O

wow, the days go by pretty fast!

in fact, it's already the end of october, meaning november starts next week.

this yr is going much faster than i had expected, but honestly, i'm only looking forward to feburary (for results! can't wait to decide what hs i'll be going to. ^_^) & june 'cus that's where all the trips are at. lately, i'm been way to KO-ed to even work in class, i'm such a slacker. x_x i personally stopped caring if i get 100 averages, if i don't try, i'll still pass just not to the fullest of my potential. i don't even know, i need more sleep. :P all my energy has been going to waste, some point of the daaay. esp. @ math! ohmygosh~ her class is super boring & the math is getting complex. i used to like math, AYLOT, but now i'm all 'WHEN WILL THIS END' & go on 'f'yeah' when i actually finish a work period e'rry once in a while. teheee! (x oh well, still livin' up the yrs. last yr together & so far it's great. i'm not disappointed one bit. wow, 2011 is comin' soon. BUAHAHA, we have one more yr to live. nahcheeel, i don't believe that bull, how much you wanna bet i'mma be living then too? (; no doubts, no regrets, i'm not going to have a problem this yr, ever. [: i hope i can get into the habit of blogging more, but honestly nowadays blogging is so blah, i don't have ideas, there's no point in sharing my days. :P blogging was once a way of communication in 6th grade, but things change & that's ohkaay. i blog for myself, not for you guys. heh, dw they'll be some dedications to readers soon~ ^_~

oh my friggin god, underclassman are f'cking slobs. i hate their attitudes most of all, but they sunk to a completely new level. they're so annoying. now i understand why 8th graders despise the YOUNGER grades. it's just ridiculous, it keeps getting worse, and there just seems to be no hope for them. i'm so glad i'm not down there again... we leave our booth for like 10 minutes & it becomes a total mess. wow, noice you 7th graders. there's this 7th graders table, i don't know, they're probzz speds for all i know. they always scream, pick fights, and think they're cool or something. ohkaay, they're all i'm so cool so i'mma do whatever i want & i don't care what you say blahblahblah. learn some respect, before you get jumped in hs. this is why i hate generations to come. seriously, i don't even like OUR generation but this is far worse.

...if i get braces, i probably won't be smiling for a while. :P

my goodness, i went to the dentist today to get my teeth cleaned and now they hurt like a friggin' bitch. like f'rrealz, can these dentists be a little softer on the teeth? they're like monsters. >.>

oh & for those of you that have braces!

is it possible to get them off in between for like a week?

& then get them back on afterwards?

'cus i really don't want to have braces or whatnot through graduation & prom, 'cus if you can't it is not worth it, well at least not this year. ;-; why is life so complex?! oh wells, i don't even know anymore. let's just see what happens 'cus that's how i roll yo'. [;

Thanks for stealing my identity.

n00bs, find your own style.

Must i reinforce e'rrything so you get the f'cking message?! -_-"

True? Oya.

I really don't care if you're gay, straight, black, asian, middle eastern, christian, atheist, agnostic, upper class or lower class. I don't care if you dress from A&F or from the church donation box. I don't care if you are skin and bones or if you weight 300 pounds. I honestly don't care if you are the quiet girl, play video games all day, or are stoned more often than you're not. If you treat others with the utmost respect and kindness, you deserve my respect in return.

Girls. :P

Girls are really not that confusing. They're actually pretty straight forward. Girls tend to be sensitive, so never lie to them. The bare truth, is better than a well dressed lie. If you make a promise, don't break it. We're not fools, we find out everything. Don't even think about taking advantage of us, we hate that the most. Girls can do anything they put there mind to. You might not realize it, but we're a lot more than you think of us as. We're not just overreacting drama queens, is it that hard to believe that we have feelings too? Being abused (mentally & physically -sexism?) as a girl is so typical. & i hate it.

SHSAT. [:

I like to pronounce it the way it is. SHH-SAT. catch my drift? Anyways, that's not the point. i don't get why erryones making such a big deal out of this test. if SHSAT's are this stressing, how the hail do you expect to get through SATS? They can determine up to the next 8 years of your life, as well as what your job will be. Getting into Stuyvesant is an honorable mention but what you gonna get out of that when it's literally the best of the best. So you're going to be competing with about 900 others in that school to become the top student. we're average, that can happen, but it's highly unlikely. scholarships? you have put that down the drain. If you're going to Stuy for the purposes of your 'rents, aight, just don't talk to me anymore. who the hell cares if they threaten you? i bet you, half of them is an exaggeration. If you have an older sibling, you're ruining there opportunities of going to a good college by shipping you over to BD. If you have a younger sibling, you're ruining their opportunities of even taking the goddamn test. If YOU don't want to go to Stuyvesant, why are YOU trying to hard? Do you really want to please asian 'rents? Good luck with that my friend, you can never please an asian parent. alright, i'm exaggerating, you can & you probably have. They just want to pressure you to do better. I know all of my classmates can, we're all honors students & we have an ability above most students in our school. If you really want to go to Stuy, study because you want to. Study because it's your future and you know what's best for yourself. i bet you that you know what you want more than your parents can guess. Your parents can continue to blab about Stuy, but guess what? Are they going to be any happier when you totally drop standards when you go to College 'cus that's not what you've ever wanted. This is your life & your chance to determine the next four years of our life. Stop living for your parents purposes, as hard as it's to say, they'll be gone soon too. I mean, it's possible to live your life with things you completely hate but happiness is not guaranteed. It's not like i don't know the pressure that your parents have on you. i understand your threats, but that's no reason to be scared of test. You tried your best and that's all that matters. So what if you can't live up to your parents standards, maybe your standards are not as high. The only thing that does matter is that you tried your hardest and got to the farthest of your ability. You can't make up for what your parents weren't able to achieve for themselves. So i'm not even kidding, but relax yourselves guys. i swear to god, if you have this much worry now, you'll probably pass out by the time you take the test. The only reason i'm not worried about the test is 'cus i'll admit i have the least bit of hope in myself. I do for all of my classmates too. Guess what? All of us WON'T get into stuy & i'll most def acknowledge that. We're on different levels & have our strengths and weaknesses. Stop trying to compete with e'rryone else but work to reach your goals. If you be competitive, you'll either want more or you'll be disappointed bcus you couldn't beat the person you wanted to beat. Find your inner peace, do everything with a reason, not 'cus you're scared! >> you guys probably worry me more than the test itself. It's just a test. Yeuuus, i said it. It might determine the next four years of your life. But it's not about WHAT school you go to, it's what you do in that school. 3 weeks is not a lot of time, but who knows how much you can accomplish in that time. If the only thing rolling through your mind is the result of the test, quit it. You're just giving yourself unnecessary pressure. As for those of you who really want to go to this school, good luck & try your best. The effort counts the most. With confidence you'll get just about anywhere. ^_^

My generation disgusts me. It fucking does.

deathnote is awesome.

don't spoil it, i'm only on ep. 2.

LOL & btw, any of you guys have a ps2 i can borrow?

ohkay jaykay, but i wanna play kingdom hearts. DX

Some of the things people argue about are just >.> ~

& when somebody jumps in the argument it's just like (duh feoo?) ~

& some people are just sitting there thuur watching them argue like o_e ~

You just want to say =_=; ~

& some people come up with the lamest comebacks like -_-"~

Overall some arguments are just~ n__n

kaykay! letz all make up and eat sum chokit kek! :D

Flashback =/

You know what i really miss? 5th grade. It was probably one of the best years of my life. It was our "senior" year or in literally terms our last year in elementary. (LOL, we call ourselves seniors all the time when the only time we're legit seniors is in highschool, ahh[x) Well, i miss it a lot. In 5th grade, or actually any grade in elementary, it didn't matter if you were ugly, if you didn't have many friends, if you were fat, nobody would judge you. It wouldn't matter. We look at each other as all the same. We're all human, we all have feelings & we didn't abuse that matter. You may have not had many friends but you would feel accepted just about anywhere you went. There were no awkward silences, no awkward glares, no "i don't know what to say" moments. It would all start smoothly like we've been friends forever. Best of all, there were no cliques. Honestly, i hate cliques. Cliques = Drama. That's probably one of the biggest reasons i wanted "TC" to end. I don't want to look up to some stuck up role models. If i look up to anyone, it wouldn't be to anyone who loves making cliques & bitching at others just bcus there not as fortunate as you. Ever since middle school started, probably through the first months of school, we all formed our cliques & if you ended up with someone outside your clique in assigned seats it would be a disaster. Calm down, just 'cus you're not with somebody you're familiar with does not mean there horrible. In fact, the majority of us have been together for years & your still not used to talking to them? It's like the elementary years have gone to waste. Cliques were stupid, judging would only make yourself look worse (i don't even think we were aware of it), & there was little or no hatred at all. That's when everything was so simple. The start of 6th grade was rocky & eventually we were all into cliques. It happened like that. It was intentionally, it just happened. All of a sudden, e'rryone hits like puberty or something & you got to have a big chest & nice ass to be accepted. what duh feoo? i've never looked for appearances first in a guy, being cute is a plus but it's not a necessity. Unlike these people out there for who knows what, so what if they have a nice body, you still gonna like them after you realize how bitchy there are? I know many of these doodes might say it for fun but it's just not funny anymore. "I wanna bang _____ bcus she's hot" or "Dude, she's hot" Alright, you can feel some affection but have your limits. And now that we're older, judging is normal. Our brains are disgusting. We could think the worst out of some of the nicest people out there if we put our mind to it. Well guess what? There's a judgment day for you too & just for a heads up, it's never too late to change that.

Ugh, i don't feel the same mood to blog anymore. Blogging is only truly meaningful if it hasn't been done in a long time 'cus that's when my thoughts are all crayzee the most.

kthxbye [=

Never assume, it makes an [ass] out of [u] and [me]

Compeitiveness

Not to give offense of anything but my class is pretty competitive. Not only for grades but for just about anything. It's not bad but I find it offending when you rub it in someone's face that you did better then them. An example would be

Person 1: "What's your score"

Person 2: 80

Person 1: AHAHAHA U SUK, i did better than you omg, this is a miracle i beat you i'm smart omg.

Person 2: ...

If i've ever done any sort of rubbing in it definitely wouldn't be so-so harsh, plus, if i ever have, i don't plan on it anymore. It's like, ohkay, i get your proud, but like f'rreals? Are you THAT happy that you did better than someone? Put yourself to higher standards & stop comparing yourself to others. That's ridiculous, and how are you gonna feel if that person does better than you? Not so great, be proud of yourself but don't put others down for that reason. My goodness, people aren't perfect & we all have our weaknesses in some subjects ohkay? Now that you've rubbed into someone's face that you're "smarter" than them bcus you "beat" them, just don't be surprised when karma (yes, it's real ali -__-!) bites you back & disrespect should be no surprise, am i right? People give back what they get, and if that trashy attitude towards others is what you give, don't accept to be "loved". Ohkay, i get it SHSAT's are coming & you want to be all prepped but no need to put others down, that's it. It's our last year together, pls don't start having to ruin our last year with none other than being competitive. Tell me, after you get everything you've ever wanted & beat everyone & rub it in one by one, is anyone even going to be there to support you for when you fail & i swear to god you will.

"Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery"

__________________ㅡ Charles Caleb Colton

I remember that blogging just started & we would each blog every day about our lives, interesting or not & it would literally be what the purpose of a blog is. Expressing your feelings & not deleting every single one of your posts. We would read each others blog to communicate, learn more about each other without having to say it face to face & it inspired one another to keep writing until the end. Now that all that has faded, wether i type here or not, nobody will care if i'm feeling down or if i'm mad at someone, blogs don't have the same purpose anymore. Although i used to be a huge fan of writing in blanks, now i'm willing to talk about my life without it, bcus no one reads it anyway. But why bother to continue writing if no one will hear the voice in your posts? Just to let anyone who reads this know in advance, but each one of my posts have a purpose deep down. Short or long, some are more visible than others but everything has a purpose. Now we're all growing & maturing each day, we're learning to trust no one & simply keep all our thoughts bottled up. But now that we are growing, don't you realize that as we get older, we go through more & we learn more. What i've learned is, no one truly misunderstands. (It's better to misunderstand than no nothing at all.) It would be impossible to understand someone's situation so perfectly. You're right, i can't give you the exact advice you want to hear. I have a different perspective & i can't guarantee that it'll be one that you'll favor. I can't say i'll understand your problems, but i can guarantee that you won't have to go through it alone. Every time i thought someone would misunderstand that i didn't tell that how i felt, in reality, i was afraid they wouldn't listen, they would judge, they wouldn't care. This is why secrets are so ridiculous, why do we hide them & keep it in until you have to blow up when your alone? I'm not telling you to trust anyone, but there will always be that one true friend willing to be by your side. A true friend is not someone you've known for the longest, but someone who never left your side. Now that i think about it, growing up isn't all that great. In reality, it can be harder to find new friends, it can be harder to open up, it can be harder to find someone who isn't lying straight up to you. This is why i like blogs, you can learn so much about someone with a few words. You might not be the type of person i am, someone who can tell what your like or how you feel but some words, but there's room to learn and there's room to listen. Overall, i'm just stating how i don't want to move on with blogs, i don't want to have secrets. I might as well say everything here, i don't care if you read it. I don't care if you mention it. Feel free to talk to me about it, i'd rather have a helping hand then wonder each and every day something that can easily be handled. Why is the world so complicated? & Why is it so easy for us to hide our emotions? Does it benefit you in anyway? Every time you fake a smile, fake a laugh, fake a friend, fake your life. You're becoming exactly what we all don't want to be. A liar, a wannabe, & last but not least, the biggest hypocrite i'll ever meet. Continue to say, "I hate when people lie, i hate wannabes, i hate when people think i won't understand" Take a look at yourselves first & before you start to judge anyone on how they live their life, it's time you control and take a look at yours first. What is the point i'm making in this point? It's a life lesson, and if you have no idea what i'm trying to say, i'm sorry to say but you've got a lot to learn. Be my guest & hide all your emotions, just don't be surprised that when your ready to speak up, no one will be there to listen. Some people don't wait forever for you to open up. There's so many people in this world with concerns and worries which can be cleared up by speaking up on how you feel. Are you worried someone is mad? Talk to them about it instead of wondering why each day. Concerned you've lost a friend? As hard as it sounds, a true friend would have never left your side. Let's face it, you can't trust anyone with your entire life. But there will be a point in life where you find someone who will stick with you forever. But then as you grow on, we learn the true meaning of happiness and it's not what you have, it's who you have in your life and if you make the best of it.This post is pretty miscellaneous, i just typed any thoughts that came to my mind. I can continue to go on and on with this but what's the point, nobody bothers to blog and look into each others blogs to learn about each other anymore. It's not the same & i'll acknowledge that. It might as well be time i say goodbye too.

8th grade, buahah. (x

Every New Semester:

After First Week:

After Second Week:

Before the Mid-Term Test:

During the Mid-Term Test:

After the Mid-Term Test:
Before the Final Exams:
Once Get to Know the Final Exam Schedule:
7 Days Before the Final Exam:
6 Days Before the Final Exam:

5 Days Before the Final Exam:
4 Days Before the Final Exam:
3 Days Before the Final Exam:
2 Days Before the Final Exam:
1 Day Before the Final Exam:
The Night Before the Final Exam:
1 Hour Before the Final Exam:
During the Final Exam:
Once Walk Out From the Examination Hall:
After the Final Exam, During the Holiday:

Toy story ^o^ ~

OH MAAAAN, i love this♥ .

& it's so cuuuute ! awwh.

New motto. LOL.

Hi.

Sharifoozeball wanted a post with his name in it.

This is for you loser! >D

I.Feel.Like.Blogging. :)

No literally, i'm not kidding.

it's a hawt hawt hawt daaaaaay! >_<;

i totally heart this weather but it's a bit yuckyyy ! ('cus it gets you all sweaty, when you start movin' hehe, i feel a bit high & wacky today ! LOL. )

i can't wait to head off to the beach/pool when the weather becomes just right & after all the tests, of course. ): it's a bummer on how this weather has to be wasted in-doors half the time with preps/tutoring & the deadly amount of homework ! D:

EGHHH;; But not to fear! we're planning a clique beach trip for july ! ^^ I LOVE THE BEACHH~ like, omgsh. There are so many things to do there ! & it's a hell lot better heading there w| friends. I might enjoy going there w| famiree, but hey; my maturity level tends to change depending on who i'm with so... ;D haha. (: I hate this bitter amount of homework that teachers gave us, give us a break ! & the math exam is this week & all, but they don't care. ㅡㅡ; Grades are always a pressure. >_>; & it's totally not my thing maaan. My 'rents said they would once reward me for my grades if i get a 100 average? doooooode; it's not going to happen. Thanks for stating the impossible. -_-" I wish grades were a lesser amount of pressure, i hate it. ): but on the bright sideee, two remaining months of school & after this week; NO MORE TESTING !! ^_^ I can't wait to be at ease for the next two months, wait, one more worry. I srsly hope that i get into 801 w| ALL my friends (yes all, cus i can't leave a single one out!!) After so much drama, & all the things we've been through togethahh like a famireeeeee~ huhuhu~ i can't let that go. ♥ i'm pretty satisfied with my life at the moment. (=

Oh yeah, no more emo/sad/yuckish posts? 100% Given. & about the un-privating blog. Hmm, i've thought about it but i feel like some stalkerish doode is going to check out my blog. For now, it's between me & my closest buds. huhuhuu~ ^^♥

Until next time, :]

Ah, i guess i can't give up on blogging forever. (:

WOOHOO.

Kim Yu-na FTW ! woohoo, what's that. koreans FTW.

haha , she got first place in figure stating.

It was BEAUTIFUL, she's so amazing. (:

ahh , i wish i could skate like that.

YOU GUYS MUST, MUST, MUST watch this !!

* http://www.nbcolympics.com/video/assetid=e554cf17-5d3c-4531-9dc6c9a9cf5eec06.html#queen%20yu%20na%20crowned%20kim%20wins%20gold

Olympics can actually be interesting, at times like this. LOL. ♥ Ah, so much pride. I am so proud of Kim Yu-na! :D

Here's my wish. *

It's 11:11 , make a wish guys. ♥