you need to fight through it. try.

that's no excuse to let it take over you.

you can't say you can't help it without nearly trying to the fullest possible.

there's hope. there always is.

people telling me to go to regents for the sake of my classmates, ohohoho.

i hate how there's also someone to degrade themselves right after report cards. it's not like i can even say anything anymore. okay, i don't give a fuck if you 70, as long as you went up. don't set your standards depending on what everyone else gets. who the hell cares? set standards for yourself, that are in your comfort zone too. improvement is something that everyone should be proud of, okay? it might not be the biggest increase ever, but you're increasing and that shows improvement. don't compare yourself to someone else because they scored like 5 points higher than you. be grateful you didn't get a 70. oh hell yeah you didn't be in honors if you get 70s, but you're in honors not ONLY for your averages mmkay? is230 is full of idiots, they group us by state wides. if your averages are low (which i highly doubt they are), no one gives a shit. it's our last year, it's not like you can GET OUT of it either. stop stressing yourselves, it's only the second marking period. jeeze, think about that one extra point you COULD HAVE got. what's done is done, get over your selves please. you know what? no ones perfect. i for one, will never live for my parents standards. why else wouldn't i not want to go to stuyvesant? screw that shizz. at this point, i don't KNOW what i want to be when i grow up, i don't know what i'll need in the future so i'm careless. i'll take advantage of what i get but i won't go for just anything. that's what happens when you're so unaware of what you want to be. so generally, i don't care what high school i go to, how good the education is, cus none of that really matters. if the education is good & you can't even handle that shizz? LOL nice try. if the education is good, but competition is tough, sorry but you'll only fall into pressure. only do what you can handle, seriously. & don't EVER compare yourself to another person. just because your parents do, doesn't mean you should follow into their footsteps. i wonder why i wrote this post, it's not like your conscience is going to change while reading this. "I NEED TO GET BETTER, I NEED TO GET BETTER"

accept yourself & shout "i'm the hottest smartest amazingest best person ever!". then we'll talk.

i didn't even know that was possible. holy crapples.

first we get our report cards, then SHSAT results, then i start korean skuu, then is the cliquaversary, and then mid winter break. F'YEAAAAAAAH! i can't wait. EHEHE.

NEVER AGAIN WILL I BE OVERPOWERED!

i just like seeing it grow, LOL.

Old posts

Looking through old posts & re-posting.

JENNY™

Jun 19, '10, 9:53 PM
If you were really my friend, you wouldn't hide everything from me. You trust me right? Are you afraid of my opinions towards you? Are you scared of me? It's almost the end of the school and you're still causing drama. Did I hurt you in anyway? Why are you hiding from me? Am i embarrassing to be around or what? I had so many questions about you & i. But you always avoided them & still do.

JENNY™
Jun 26, '10, 3:41 PM
Nothings exciting anymore.

Don't.

JENNY™
Jul 13, '10, 5:12 PM
Don't compliment me if you don't mean it.
Don't tell you me love me if you don't mean it.
Don't tell me you care if you don't mean it.
Don't tell me you understand if you don't.
Don't tell me you'll always be there, when you won't.
Don't tell me everything is gonna be okay, when it's not.
Don't tell me you're sorry, if you don't mean it.
Don't tell me that you're my friend, when you're really not.
Don't tell me unless you really really mean it.

JENNY™

Aug 14, '10, 6:38 PM
usually i don't like telling people about my problems. bcus if i do, they'll start to assume and make up things that never really happened bcus it's from their perspective and they don't know the whole story.

JENNY™
Aug 28, '10, 12:02 AM
i hate to admit it, but they're right.

Fact. O:
JENNY™
Sep 16, '10, 4:48 PM
It's amazing how at one point in our lives, we will be extremely close with someone and then later they will become a complete stranger. You will pass by them without a word. Without a single acknowledging look. This person, who once knew you so well, who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past, is now walking right past you, seeing right through you

JENNY™
Sep 26, '10, 5:23 PM
why do i believe in god?
'cus his the only person that would truly accept me for who i am, no one else would ever do that.

JENNY™

Sep 28, '10, 5:58 PM
On the whole, I don't have any friends. Friends come and go; I've lost my trust factor. I believe I have people who think they're my friend. And I believe that there are people probably in their heart who are friends towards me or are friends to me. But they're not my friends, because what I learned is that fear is stronger than love.

JENNY™

Oct 15, '10, 5:12 PM
if i posted something that i haven't told anyone.
would you force the details out of me?

JENNY™
Oct 29, '10, 6:27 PM
since you control your emotions, without a doubt, no one's causing depression to you, you chose that to be your lifestyle. so stop blaming others. >_>

JENNY™
Oct 31, '10, 4:18 PM
Maybe that's why i don't tell people anything anymore.

Graaaades. ;~;
JENNY™
Nov 15, '10, 4:21 PM
the thing about me is, i don't try for good grades. no really, i don't. >_<;; i sit in the classroom, act smart & somehow teachers like me, idk. o_O; i'm the talkative kid but teachers pretend not to catch me. i don't complete half my work, yet teachers cut me slack. it's a miracle how mr. felder offered to play deal or no deal with me in 6th grade, it raised my ELA average by 3 points. hah. ^_^ what's funny is, i don't try & i achieve highly. & the thing that sucks for some people is that you compete against me for my average. braaah, keep tryin' as hard as you want you 오버어치버s. just keep it in mind, i'll never compete with anyone. i'll never want to beat anyone, 'cus getting my hopes up for great things & them not happening, i'm done with that. + i don't know how you guys feel but even though we're all nerds & love getting good grades, i consider you my family & wanting to take you down is just not my style. :P you wanna know my secret to getting good grades? be confident & do all the work. that's all i do so stop thinking that it's all bcus i'm asian. just bcus you're asian does not make you smart, and get good grades. it depends on the person & honestly you get the grade you deserve. i don't suck up to teachers, i don't add in any additional efforts. if you don't know me, i am quite a lazy child. so stop degrading yourselves on how you couldn't do better, you all did friggin' great & it's time you accept yourself for who you are. maybe you're not those kids who exceed & get 100 averages. who gives a fck if your parents aren't happy with you? just bcus i'm asian & you're brown, it doesn't distinguish us apart from each other.

the day i'm most "stressed" is the day that works best. what the heck. i never thought that would happen. things are too good to be true sometimes, yknow those moments?